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Hi All!

I have moved on to a new challenge and a new blog! Since I probably wont be updating this one anymore please follow me over at: http://anotherdietingbride.blogspot.com/

I look forward to reconnecting with you all!

Thanks for your continued support! LOVE YA!

Day 43:paying the price

Well, it is 3am and I am blogging, not because I want to but because I am on the couch right now "recovering".

Last night, I went out with a few friends for a fancy dinner at Fiamma Trattoria & Bar in the MGM Grand for Restaurant Week here in Vegas. Which means that a bunch of restaurants are offering a set menu and the proceeds benefit Three Square Food bank! It is really an awesome program because we have the chance to sample some of the best restaurants in Vegas- for a great price AND you get to help out a charity! Here is the link: http://www.threesquare.org/events/event-calendar/restaurant-week/ I hear they actually run the program in a bunch of cities.

Anyway, we had a few choices on the set menu (http://www.threesquare.org/fiamma-trattoria-bar/) and OF COURSE I picked the heaviest most unhealthy ones: the crispy calamari, ravioli & panna cotta. Let me tell you- It was DEEEELISCIOUS my friend and paired with a few glasses of wine .... a great evening.

Well, that is until 3 am.

If you are dieting maybe you can relate when I say I now have a "delicate" tummy. It's not use to heavy creams, alcohal, fried foods, oil- you know the ingredients that make food actually taste good. I ate/drank it all! Now the dieting gods are ANGRY. They told me so when they woke up 30 minute ago with a rumbling tumbling in my bowels. Ugh so angry with me- and I am paying the price as I run to the restroom for the 4th time while I write this. The Vegetarian Godess is laughing at me right now the way I scoffed at someone last night who preached her ways. When will I learn????? Probably never.

Until then I gotta run to the bathroom...

Day 44: On the Go, GO, Go

I am so busy this week and it's reeking havoc on my diet. I don't think I can make it to the gym until at least Sat. because I've got something going on every night this week. Yesterday I went to weight watchers and weighed in at 147. I can't really complain about it since at least I am staying between 145-147, just bouncing back and forth between those two numbers.

Tomorrow I am going out for dinner with friends, friday a concert (with open bar) and then it's Labor day weekend! Sheeesh.... if you've read this blog before you know I have serious trouble with unrestricted eating. I just wanted to be able to track this week. And that is so hard for me when I am out and about. So I guess my only plan of action is to try to eat light for the early meals so I can save as many points as possible for the evening.

I tell ya, today I really contemplated going back to the doctor and trying the other medication she suggested. But I reeeeeally want to lose this last 15 by myself. I am going to give it a couple more weeks and see if I can get my shit straight.

talk to you tomorrow.

Day 46: That evil shrimp wrap

Ugh, today was a tough one. I swear I had the best intentions when I went to Applebees for lunch. I mean, how many calories could that shrimp wrap really have anyway??? I figured It wasnt the best choice, but I didnt think it would be... 850 calories! SHIT! Eight hundred and fifty fricken 'calories! What did they put in that thing? Lard? It was good yes, but worth over half of my daily calories - definately not. You can probably guess how the rest of the day turned out. I guess you live and you learn.

Part of the problem was I was hungry when I walked in and everything on that damn menu looked delicious!

It's times like these that I miss my special "pills". I know it sounds terrible but I really miss the control I had when I took them and the fact that I hardly ever experienced hunger. Sigh. I guess all good things have to come to an end.

Sometimes I wonder if I am going to be able to take these last 15 pounds off by myself. I wouldn't say I was addicted to the pills but I had such amazing control and THAT feeling was addicting. I could eat a dry salad for lunch and feel completely satisfied. I never thought about food. I mean its not like I've gone back to my old ways completely but sometimes it scares me that I get so hungry. I really don't want to gain this weight back.

At least tomorrow is a new day.

-L

Ps- to the reader who asked yesterday: It's Bontril

Let's try this again....

No, I did not fall off the end of the earth- or off the weight loss wagon either. In fact, I have actually been doing pretty well since my last post. I am now down to my lowest weight since 2002! 146 pounds! I have lost a total of 50 pounds in the past 2 years and 3 months- and about 25 of those pounds in the last 4 months.

Maybe I took the easy way out.

Yes, I will admit it. I've had a little help from my doctor. She gave me something to make it ALOT easier to follow my diet. I know some might consider it cheating. But I'm okay with that, because I would do it over again in a second. The medication she gave me was only to be taken for a short period of time and unfortunately, since my body built up a tolerance to it by the end of the prescription it was loosing it's effect.

Now, I have 45 days until my 31rst birthday and i am still 15 pounds from my goal.

I am on my own again- no doctor's prescription.

I am back to Weight Watchers and back to working out again.

And I am back to daily journaling.

I can hit my goal.

So, now I just have to figure out a new way to stay motivated to do it.

So... back to the tried and true.



See ya tomorrow & See ya lighter ; )