DAY 60: One step forward, two steps back.

I shouldn't have. But I did.

I weighed myself this morning- and then AGAIN after 35 min on the elliptical.

Both times I wanted to bitch-slap that piece of shit.

So, the damage from last nights dinner party appeared on the scale. Sometimes I feel like its one step forward, two steps back.  I mean how could 4 days of healthy eating be completely sabotaged by one big meal? This is why I should NOT weigh myself everyday! But it is really hard not too.

Today, I am trying to take it easy- juice & honeydew for b-feast &  6" chk sub for lunch w/a 1/2 bag of chips. Plus I did 35 min. on the elliptical. 

UGH!!!! I'm so F*CKING sick of the up & down shit. I just hope that when I go to WW tomorrow it will show some improvement from last week. Cause right now, I dont know if it will.

Todays weigh (after elliptical) 167.4

Damn- I hope I see you lighter tomorrow...

Day 61: The Dinner Party

What can I say? It was a dinner party and I have a difficult time controlling myself at these kind of events. I tried a few methods- always have a glass of water in your hand/distance yourself from the food/ dont drink any alcohol. They all helped to some degree. But this is hard for me and I struggle with it. While I saw some improvement in my behavior it was a struggle, and Im sure I went way over my points today.

It's a shame too... cause the scale was down again this morning -166.4. Now.... tomorrow, who knows. Whats worse, I didn't even get to excercise.

I guess today could have been worse,  I will just have to try super hard tomorrow.

Hope you see me lighter tomorrow!

Day 62: I've discovered that

 if you put your food down (all the way on the plate), after each bite, you will eat so much slower! I tried this yesterday when we went to Subway. I ordered a 6in. and The fiance ordered a foot long sub (normally I can eat a foot long- no problem). I practiced my "put-down" method and was shocked that he actually finished before me. Normally i am done way before him and I end up chowing on his food. The method worked so well, that I tried it with pizza today. He got 2 slices, I got one. Worked again-He was done before me.  PLUS I end up getting full a lot quicker!

So I'm going to keep trying this method....

All-in-all I did well today. I am really trying to convince myself to do some shredding.... but I reeeeeeeally dont want to...... but I am have to..... even if its for only for 5 minutes.

A little nervous about tomorrow's dinner party. I am trying to rehearse the scenario in my mind. I have a feeling I will end up having a few drinks and all hell will break loose and I'll start consuming calories at an obscene rate. Pray for me!

Oh the scale showed some movement- 166.8 today!

So... I'll see you lighter on Day 61!

Day 63: A birthday Present to myself

Okay- as promised, here I am!!  AND I'm happy to report a good day! Good eating & good exercise! I would give myself a solid "A". 

I will admit, it was SO hard to workout tonight. I had to really dig deep. But it was looming over me... so drudgingly I threw in the 30 day Shred and got on with it. It was awful, I hated it, I'm not gonna lie, it sucked. I almost didn't finish it. My arms hurt so flipping bad that I cant even raise them above my head. But I am really glad I did it. 

I think writing everyday is going to be a huge motivator for me, because it keeps me accountable and reminds me of every dwindling day closer I am to my birthday- goal date! BUT what better way to reward myself on my birthday than to shed another 20+ pounds? I really thought about that a lot today. What better present can I give myself than a brand new body to celebrate in Costa Rica with! I really cant think of something I would want more than that! I just keep imagining giving myself a huge 25 pound package of fat all wrapped up in a beautiful box with a giant pink bow. Completely disgusting. Completely effective.

Until Day 62- See ya lighter!

My Mission Day 64

I just realized I only have 64 days left until my 30th birthday. Wow- and I still have 37 pounds to lose to hit my goal. I dont think its gonna happen. I can be really positive about it and say, I can do it!!!! But the truth is it's too much too fast. Thats like 5 pounds per week.  

At this point that isnt really a realistic goal. But I did say that if I hit 150 by my 30th birthday that I would be happy. So my new goal is 145 by my birthday.

In order to help myself along a bit I have made it my mission to write in this blog 1x every day for the next 64 days until my birthday. I promise to write down ever good, bad and ugly day for the next 8 weeks.

I am hoping that by keeping this "dairy"- even if its only 1 sentence per night, I may stay more faithful to my goal. So here we go... 64 days left... wont you join me? Cause I'm gonna need ALL the help I can get.

See you lighter tomorrow!