Day 34: Don't take any day for GRANTED

I woke up feeling awful this morning, my stomach was sour, my head was pounding and I had a fever. If it wasn't for one magic tylenol I found on top of  my dresser I would have never made it to work this morning. Bless those people who created pain relievers.

One thing I can say is, feeling shitty made me less than hungry most of the morning and afternoon. I didn't really want to eat. That was until my appetite came back- voraciously at dinner time. The Fiance and I enjoyed a rather large Sushi dinner. I am pretty proud to say I only ate about two rolls- but I did have teriyaki chicken . Which I probably didn't need to eat. I wish it was easier to say "NO", but once that full plate is in front of me it's so hard not to just eat it all. Half way through I noticed the "body sigh"... I recognized that I was satisfied. As soon as I noticed the sigh I knew it was time to slow down. Reluctantly I pushed away my plate —but not without taking one or two more bites ; ). Even though I consumed more calories than I wanted to, I am giving myself a kudos for pushing away a plate that still had 6 pieces left on it!

Now, if you dont mind before I close this entry I would like to add one more thing. I know this is a weight loss blog and it is somewhat off the subject. But I feel compelled to add it. Today I was surprised at the lack of coverage of 9/11. It has been only eight years but I hardly saw any major stories or even tributes about it today. It's not even a trending topic. This was  a shock to me, it seems like every 9/11 I see the coverage on TV and I am immediately taken back (very vividly) to that day. I remember where I was, who I was with and what I was doing. I remember it like it happened yesterday. When I watch the clips all those memories rush back. I hope we never stop looking back on that day and remembering all those people, all those heros.  I hope I never forget what that day taught me: Don't take any day for GRANTED. Try your best to appreciate everything precious in your life. 

Let's make a pact to never forget these people and how much this day changed our lives.

Thanks for listening.

Day 35: Hmmm this is strange....

Sometimes when I am really, really hungry and I've waited too long for dinner I get a case of the shakes. It feels like my stomach is upset and I could rip someone's face off if they get in my way...

But something weird is happening today- I have a case of the shakes but I'm not hungry at all. I am a bit confused about it. I feel really weak and tired and shaky all over. The same way I am when I'm hungry. But I feel completely full and all I ate was a chicken breast and watermelon for dinner. In fact I did pretty well the whole day- I earned a "B" on my calorie analysis from caloriecount.com.

Maybe it's because of TOM... I am just SOOOO tired. Exhausted really, I could barely keep my eyes open to watch the Steelers kick ass. It sucks, because I don't even have any strength to exercise.

It just feels really weird, I am use to this feeling being accompanied by a growling tummy. But food is the last thing I want. Hmmm... what is going on?

Maybe I am getting sick. That would be just what I need. ***GROAN***

-Luzanne

See ya lighter!

Day 36: It's either me or the Brownies...

The family left today.

When I got home from work I cleaned the junk out of the fridge and actually threw away a half pan of brownies! I hate to waste food but I just KNEW if they sat there on the counter, they would be gone. I didn't really even like them, but it was still hard! At first I contemplated taking them to work and sharing them but then I realized, What the hell am I thinking?! I dont stand a chance with those things around tempting me. It was either me or the brownies. 

I also tossed a couple bags of chips and some rolls. However, the macaroni salad convinced me to let it stay for one more day... but now I am thinking about tossing it on its ass too. That shit is mean!

I was so convinced that when they left it would be easy again. Oops! Guess what!! I was wrong. I tried to be really good today. But dinner got the best of me and I gave in and made some poor choices. 

I cant be too hard on myself. I managed to work out on the elliptical- the first time I "exercised" in over a week! I only hung on for 20 minutes and I had to drag myself tooth and nail up to the gym but I did it... so that gives me home for tomorrow.

I havent weighed myself since Sunday's weigh in. Truthfully I am scared. I am scared that if I get on that scale and it says a big gain I will be so depressed. So ignorance is bliss - for all I know I am still 163. 

And at this point I just want to work my butt off so that when I go to WW next week it doesn't say anything over that.

- Luzanne Mythis

See ya lighter!

Day 37: Almost there

I did great for a half the day- does that count for something?

day 38: What's the point???

***Sigh***

I've pretty much lost my will power- just too much going on. I am not bingeing, but I'm not making healthy choices. With the holiday, family, picnics and a fridge full of junk food, everything is working against me. But I have ONE MORE DAY to survive before the family heads home then it's back to the normal routine- back to LOSING WEIGHT!!!!

-SYL