Ugh, today was a tough one. I swear I had the best intentions when I went to Applebees for lunch. I mean, how many calories could that shrimp wrap really have anyway??? I figured It wasnt the best choice, but I didnt think it would be... 850 calories! SHIT! Eight hundred and fifty fricken 'calories! What did they put in that thing? Lard? It was good yes, but worth over half of my daily calories - definately not. You can probably guess how the rest of the day turned out. I guess you live and you learn.
Part of the problem was I was hungry when I walked in and everything on that damn menu looked delicious!
It's times like these that I miss my special "pills". I know it sounds terrible but I really miss the control I had when I took them and the fact that I hardly ever experienced hunger. Sigh. I guess all good things have to come to an end.
Sometimes I wonder if I am going to be able to take these last 15 pounds off by myself. I wouldn't say I was addicted to the pills but I had such amazing control and THAT feeling was addicting. I could eat a dry salad for lunch and feel completely satisfied. I never thought about food. I mean its not like I've gone back to my old ways completely but sometimes it scares me that I get so hungry. I really don't want to gain this weight back.
At least tomorrow is a new day.
Ps- to the reader who asked yesterday: It's Bontril