Most times I have things under control, and I can keep my life in order, my choices smart, my lifestyle healthy. But I have this other woman who lives inside me and sometimes she brakes free. I try to keep her locked up inside, for my own good. But once i let her start to rear her ugly head- she ends up taking over. She makes me do things I clearly should not. She's the one who convinces me to eat an entire box of cookies, or go through more than one drive through at dinner time. Give her an inch and she'll take a mile.
I TRY to keep her locked up but sometimes she gets out. And when she gets out- better lock down the food. Lately she's been out and trolling around Las Vegas. The truth is, I don't have a split personality. But I AM a binge eater. And lately I am having a hard time controlling it.
So, why oh why would I go out to a buffet when I know I cant handle food right now????
Ugh, I feel gross. I have been yo-yoing for a month- i thought I might have broken my plateau this week. One day I had made it to the 163's. This morning I went to WW and lost the 2.8 pounds I gained 2 weeks ago.
So, how did I celebrate the loss???? The Buffet??? WTF?!
I tried to keep myself in line, I went for the Veggies first... but then my eyes glazed over when I saw the buffet spread. And I found myself getting back up for seconds, thirds- ahhhh--- even fourths!!!! And then I knew the crazy bitch was out of her cage.
I am not going to give up, I wont, I will keep fighting my inner-food-crazed monster. She may have won todays battle, but I swear I will win this war.
Till next time, one of my personalities, will see you lighter!