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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

I'm Not Faking My Life Anymore - Biggest Loser Episode Review

"I'm not Faking my Life Anymore"- Nicole from the Biggest Loser

I love that quote.

I think anyone who is heavy, can relate to the quote. I know I can.  I hate to say this, but the happiest times of my life were the times when I was at my thinnest. That was when I felt the best about MYSELF. I was more confident and felt like a real person. When I was at my heaviest point - almost 200 pounds- I felt invisible. I felt like no one noticed me. And I started to not care. At all. I picked out clothes that covered my body. Not clothes that looked good. I felt I didn't deserve expensive/nice clothes- I felt no one was looking. And I convinced myself I didn't care.

Watching tonight's episode hit home. 

I was so happy for Nicole, she is the Biggest Loser in my book. She lost 87 pounds AT HOME. That's incredible!  I wish they would have let her stay one more week. I think it would have been good for the show. But her gain just proves that stress can really affect weight loss. . Do I think that is the only reason she gained? I have my theories.   I *think* maybe in preparation for returning to the show she cut her calories way back the week before, and her body rebelled a little bit?  That is my theory. Maybe she was adhering to a stricter diet back home? Maybe they forced her to eat all that Fiber One and she was eating high protein/ low carbs? Who know's? Sometimes the scale does what it wants too...

The Product Placements are getting ridiculous! Come on now! It actually pisses me off. They are totally cheesy and they cheapen the show. I wish they would talk about diet and nutrition a little more, maybe showing the choices the contestants make during mealtime. Then maybe if they have a product in the background it wouldn't be so bad.  

While I was watching tonight's show i worked out for 50 minutes on the elliptical.  It was funny because Nicole talked about seeing herself in the mirror and not realizing it was her at first. The same thing happened to me! I bought a new pair of fitted workout shorts and when I saw myself I had to do a double-take, I am finally starting to notice changes! And it feels good!

Tonight's show was awesome- the best one yet! Tara even name-dropped the company I work for (so try to figure that one out ; ).

I cant wait for next weeks episode!

Until next time, C U lighter!


  1. I can so relate to the idea that thin = free and happy, while fat = hiding and unhappy. One thing that I have found helpful is to realize that I can FEEL happy and free, even if my body is not at the weight I would like it to be. In fact, I find that the more I FEEL happy and free, the easier weight loss becomes.

  2. So so so true. I completely relate. You articulated the first paragraph so well it was as if my fat self had written me a letter.